Today is the 29th February 2008 . A day more this year in the month of February, a day more to work, a day more to spent and a day more to think .

I only sent you one single SMS yesterday, and none today, and since you told me you'll be over to Indonesia back home, i guess we'll not contact each other for days then . Nothing special to you, but something special to me, particularly me . I have been thinking alot lately, more than usual, ever since we first met, ever since what happened . I'm curious, i wanna know what you think, yet i can't and doesn't have to ability to . Please don't give me excuses .

Work today was tiring, i almost doze off twice when entering transaction datas . And the people there got unhappy because of me . I was hired to assist the accounts department, but somehow people are fighting over me because each individual has too much to finish and is in desperate need of a second hand . I have five colleagues to work with and a manager to see everyday . May, Joanne, Yan Ping, Mars and Hue Ser are my colleagues, outta all, only Mars is a local Malay, the rest are Malaysian Chinese . Mars have been ordering me to help her with her job lately, at least for the past three days i had been assisting Mars and Mars alone, previously was with May and Joanne, sometimes Hue Ser, never helped Yan Ping before because her job is somewhat special from the others . So Joanne and May was talking over issues that Mars had been using me too much and they can't get me to help them and that Mars wanted me to help with the costing department . I don't care even if they start fighting, but if i knew this would have happen, i rather not work there and let their friendship be as good as before, i'm just a temproary girl afterall, not worth enough to spoil a true friendship i thought . This lead to some of them gossiping about Mars not working and keep on calling home chatting up with her kids and stuffs during lunch . I feel bad . What should i do ?

I'm already troubled enough . My results sucks so much . I'm no longer eligible for the Finland trip . CYA . My health . And now work politics involving me that makes me feel that i'm always someone who invites nothing but trouble . If this is what i get, then i rather be back myself when i once had mental problems that made me keep every single thing that happen to myself . Better and lesser trouble that way .

Let the problems be solved, all i want is to earn as much money as i can before Year 2 starts, because then, i wouldn't be working anymore jobs . That simple, nothing much, nothing more, what's so difficult to attain ?

Maybe you should know why i'm willing to try . Because this is no joking matter to me now .

Leap years - yet, worse than before . . .